TW: sexual violation Sex started to be more triggering after I began doing self intervaginal massage (aka pussy massage). We like to follow all the taglines of “have better sex! More orgasms! Reclaim your power!” And yes, these are very real and important affects of sexual healing. But the road to get there isn’t all 🌈 and 🦄 . When we begin to de-armor parts of our body that hold tension as protection around a wound, we feel the dissolution of the sensation, emotion and mental associations...

I used to be an undercover nervous wreck. People would reflect to me: "oh you're SO calm. I love your peaceful energy." But really, I was frozen. Unconsciously, I was running on hyper-vigilance. My adrenals were utterly exhausted, yet anxiety kept me running anywhere accept the present moment. For those of us who struggle with hyper-vigilance, we are over-identifying with PREY. Essentially, I didn't have a strong foundation of internal safety to lean into, so I hyper-focused on my environment...

It's 4am and I am in my new era of being awake in the middle of the night... Awakened by a hunger... at first literal and then creative... A necessity of needing to tell story by candlelight, to tend to the soul of my being. And so, I have a story to share with those of you who wander through here. As if we've found ourselves at a lowly cavern on a windy, rainy night... with nothing to do but listen to each other's tails of adventure and tribulation. I am remembering my last Moondance - La...